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òY Monday, December 28, 2009Y
5:06 AM
Man.... after so long for not blogging, i wonder if anyone even read my blog. somehow why parts of my dreams came true? is it deja-vu acting again or is it me and my weird feelings? Somehow now i don't feel so good. Kind of sick having a flu that kills. One sneeze or cough can practically either kill me or bring me down. The feeling of being lonely at home sucks, you'll feel that it's like life has no more meaning, you'd rather die then continue living without a reason. Haiz... anyway i'm quite bad at expressing myself to other people. Practically you can say i suck at all my language. Some girls had been ignoring me for a long time, it makes me think of why they are ignoring me. I think maybe it's because of my looks or i just suck so badly. School is starting soon and i'm going to flunk my maths badly. i wonder if i could just study well and aim a GPA of 4.00 Dang... I can say that i'm jealous of some of my friend, like why they could have a relationship in love once and i don't. Haiz... some people would say that someday in life, you would have the chance to be with a girl of your dreams. I wonder if it's true... because i found her but i doubt i can express my feelings to her.(Hope i can tell her my feelings before anything happens to me or before i leave this world.) Rather, I would wish if life could be fair... like isn't it great if people would just come together, have the same amount of wealth and treatment... By being fair, we can avoid may things in the world like racial riots, racism, corruption and many more. Many of the human acts that brings chaos into the world are mostly due to money and thinking... Human beings are just followers, even leaders tends to follow sometime. I'm not trying to preach here but trying to prove a point. My last question of the day before i sleep cause it's already like 5.22am here in singapore. Is 2012 going to happen or is it just a saying?p.s i love you but i just don't dare to tell you.